As a child, I didn’t have the luxury of having that incredible “Aha! I want to be a ____ when I grow up!” moment. All I wanted was to please everyone around me and make everyone else happy. It did occasionally mean that I had to be unhappy or angry, but it didn’t bother me for very long. I eventually got my “Aha!” moment, in that very magical year of 2011.
I realized that I did not have enough knowledge and I couldn’t continue to just wing it. With my parents backing me, I enrolled in a college to learn about childcare, milestones and development. Soon after my enrolment, I realized that I am going to need some practical experience with more than one age group and more than two boys. Again, time for a very big sacrifice!
This sacrifice left me unemployed for four months – horrible doesn’t even begin to explain that! Eventually my mother managed to persuade me to get up and show up! We spent an entire day driving around towns and suburbs, stopping at every single pre-school we could see. It felt like endless “Hi, I am Sunette and I am looking for a job. Please take my resume and let me know if you have an opening. Thank you” All of the answers were the same, “Sorry, we cannot help you.” Can you even imagine what that does to a person? You feel worthless, ashamed, and useless even. I felt completely inferior to everyone around me. Needless to say, tears were inevitable.
That day will stay with me forever. What have I learned? To be more compassionate, humble and kind. I came out stronger that day because I had to forget about my ego and be completely patient. I had to do a lot of soul searching and fight to stay positive and smile while the doors closed in my face. Giving up was not an option, not only for myself but also for my mom. She had been wiping away tears and listening to me complain and scream for an entire day. My mom gave up her whole day just so I didn’t have to go through this day alone. I could not give up. I did not give up. I got the job! The last pre-school I dragged myself into had an opening. An opening just for me. A whole new chapter, just for me. A chance to grow and learn, just for me. A new beginning for the new me.
They say it takes only one day to change your life completely. One day to see the rest of your life. This was my day. The day I was reborn into the person I still am today. Not my proudest or easiest day but my revelation. That day I vowed to never let someone I love go through hard times alone, I vowed to love unconditionally, I vowed to fight and to stay strong no matter what and I vowed to never give up. No matter how hard it gets. Never. Give. Up.